It's all in the genes...or not!

Today marks 3 months since the day we found out Poppy was sick.  I'll never forget the events of that morning - the outfit I was wearing, feeling nervous as we left the house, drinking OJ at McDonald's, Shelby's reassuring "I'm sure we'll be able to see what it is" (gender wise), our excited Moms, and lastly but overwhelmingly not least - "we are seeing some very disturbing things".  Those were the first words uttered by the Dr. who saw me that morning as he gazed into the sonogram machine at our sweet little girl (although we didn't know she was a she at the time).  Words that are forever burned in my memory as we lovingly watched our baby, not believeing what we were hearing.  The Dr. told us there was no magical solution, we told him that was ok because we believed in miraculous solutions.  No one could tell us precisely what was wrong, even the specialist Dr.'s weren't certain.  All I know is we prayed harder and clung to God more in those 2 weeks than we ever had before.  We were surrounded by friends, family, children, and people who didn't even know us who probably prayed more and clung to God more on our behalf than they had in a while.  And you know what happened - He showed up. He met us in every moment and feeling, He comforted us, He grieved with us, He helped us enjoy a vacation, and He brought joy to us in what would be our last 2 weeks with Poppy.  And then in His grace, He brought peace to us in the moments the Dr. told us she was gone.  3 months ago we started walking a road I didn't (and most days don't) want to walk.  And as I look back, I see that He wasn't preparing us for losing Poppy (or what would come after losing her), but preparing us as to Who to trust in the losing.  And as you can read from some of my previous posts, He has been - and is - faithful. 

To the Dr.'s surprise, we discovered after testing that Poppy had Trisomy 21 (Down Syndrome).  Hello Fear, enter here - Trisomy 21 carries the chance of being genetic. As much as it didn't worry me and we trusted the Lord, it still lingered in the back of my mind - what if?  What if all our children could have it? Will we still have children if that is the case?  Sometimes it is just so overwhelming to know as much as we know.  Let me enter here and say for clarity that I would be thrilled - albeit overwhelmed - to have a baby with DS.  Anyways, as a result of the testing the Dr. recommended Genetic Counseling for us before trying again, and alas - the point of this post - our appointment was today!  A mere 3 months later and I am thrilled to announce that the DS "is all NOT in the genes"!  We know that this in no way guarantees us that we will not have a child with DS, but it is comforting to hear that after all of this we are "low risk". :)

Scared? Yes.  Sad? Yes.  Thankful? Undoubtebly.  Hopeful? By grace, Yes!  Not bad for 3 months and counting...

"Let us hold fast to the confession of our hope without wavering, for He who promised is faithful" Hebrews 10:23